I have been battling for weeks over continuing to keep nursing Ayden or to stop. For anyone who has agnoized over this you know what I’m going through. If I was working part-time or at home I wouldn’t even be thinking about this, but working full-time has made it tough. From the day Ayden was born I have been pumping 2-3 times day, and on many days more than that. With everything going on in life it stresses me out. I dread waking up to pump. I miss coffee. I’m not fond of spending so much time in the bathroom at work. While at the same time I know it’s best for Ayden to have breast milk. I think the decision is Monday I will go to the WIC office and change to all formula. Thinking about all of this stresses me out and I’m always almost in tears. I know it’s silly, but it’s a tough decision to make.
Ayden is just getting over a mild case of the flu. It seems that between 5-7 months our kiddos get sick and decide they don’t really want to nurse anymore. He’s going through this right now. Plus, today I forgot my pumping flanges at home so there was no pumping at work today. Since I missed a session anyway why not stop today…right?
That’s been the big mess in my head the past few weeks. I have been trying to do some sewing but time has not allowed. Maybe next week.